The one thing, I've realized, I think is that a website is not a medium that is expression in itself, but a medium which you express something through. At least, for me. I want to make page upon page of pages. I want to make something sprawls in all directions, almost aimlessly. To do such a thing I would need to handle myself properly in the first place. I've failed to make anything due to outside influence. I'd start working on my website, and then be forced to do something else, because I had failed to do that something else first in the first place. I need to fix myself. So maybe I will come back here, and fix something, and make something I can be happy with. I hope one day I am happy. Happy in some meaningful way. But I need not just my own hope, but to act.